(Sigh!)
I seem to be doing that alot these days. I cant seem to make up my mind on what emotion I will have for the day.
Its a roller coaster...
*starts to sing* (Emotional Roller Coaster by Vivian Green)
~Im on an emotional roller coaster
~Loving you aint nothing healthy
~Loving you was never good for me
~But I cant get off...
I think too much and I reminesce way too often about my ex. I still find myself smiling when I think about the good times. Is that wrong? I still sometimes wonder what would have happened if I fought or if he made an attempt not to just throw my heart against the wall and watch it break in a million pieces. Its been too long since the breakup, I must get over it. Move on. I cant say I havent tried, but its kind of hard to find someone these days. Especially when you have realized your value and raised you standards. I refuse to settle for anything! *nods with firmness* I guess thats why im still single. Oh well, good things come to those who wait, but dammit.
I seem to be doing that alot these days. I cant seem to make up my mind on what emotion I will have for the day.
Its a roller coaster...
*starts to sing* (Emotional Roller Coaster by Vivian Green)
~Im on an emotional roller coaster
~Loving you aint nothing healthy
~Loving you was never good for me
~But I cant get off...
I think too much and I reminesce way too often about my ex. I still find myself smiling when I think about the good times. Is that wrong? I still sometimes wonder what would have happened if I fought or if he made an attempt not to just throw my heart against the wall and watch it break in a million pieces. Its been too long since the breakup, I must get over it. Move on. I cant say I havent tried, but its kind of hard to find someone these days. Especially when you have realized your value and raised you standards. I refuse to settle for anything! *nods with firmness* I guess thats why im still single. Oh well, good things come to those who wait, but dammit.
Wait, wait, wait.
That was the love roller coaster...
Now let us jump on the stabilty coaster. I am in school for nursing. *pats self on back* I tend to surprise myself on how smart I really am. But I still get scared about whether or not I will finish my schooling and get my license. I have periods of determination and hope, which end with doubt. (hence the roller coaster analogy) I dont think I'll be able to make it on my own in the real world.
Now let us jump on the stabilty coaster. I am in school for nursing. *pats self on back* I tend to surprise myself on how smart I really am. But I still get scared about whether or not I will finish my schooling and get my license. I have periods of determination and hope, which end with doubt. (hence the roller coaster analogy) I dont think I'll be able to make it on my own in the real world.
Is that pathetic? I think so.
Will I be able to have a real career? Maybe not.
Maybe I should take it one step at a time, day by day, and hour by hour. Writing this is depressing I need to think more happy thoughts. Hmmmm....like getting an orgasm!! :-D
2 comments:
A. Love the way you write, easy to follow, quick to read. Understandable.
B. I can identify completely. It was really hard for me to find someone after my long relationship, simply b/c I knew exactly what I DIDN'T WANT and that I was never going to put up with Bullshit every again...either way once your heart gets blown apart into a billion pieces its so much harder to put back together after...sometimes I wonder if it can be permanent.
ANYWAY! :P I was just cruizin through blogs and as cheesy as it sounds- your words got to me. Ha. :D
"Its been too long since the breakup, I must get over it. Move on. I cant say I havent tried, but its kind of hard to find someone these days. Especially when you have realized your value and raised you standards"
I love that!!! Thats exactly how I feel, its hard for me to get over someone I havent even been in a commited relationship with & what you said is the exact reason. Its hard to move on once you raised your standards because 90% of the men out there are not for ladies with any type of standards at all. Its hard out there, just dont ever lower your standards again and you'll find someone great. :-)
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