10/28/10
Sitting in the hospital waiting room...sigh. Two more hours until my mom comes out of surgery. Woke up this morning thinking this was an outpatient type of surgery only to find out she will be here five plus days. That lady didn't tell me anything! I should of known something was up when people kept coming over the house to pray. For the last couple of days I have been awakened by very loud shouts of "Amens" and "Alleluias". I'm scared shitless because they are cutting into the back of her head. What makes it worse is that I understand all of the medical technology. *throws up fist* Curse you nursing school! Curse you! I guess for now all I can do is pray that God guides this surgeon. I hope he has an A-type personality and he is OCD. *crosses fingers*. sigh...X2!
11/9/10
Mom was suppose to be getting better not worse! She has developed a wound infection. Now she has to return to the hospital to get the wound cleaned and antibiotics given. Two weeks of back and forth to the hospital these doctors need to get it to together. I don't have gas money for this. I am not making the big bucks yet. Luckily they decided to have her continue the antibiotics at home. Stress, stress, stress is all I feel!
11/29/10
Sigh....Mom is has a low grade fever that wont go away. :-( I took her to the doctor and guess what? Yep they admitted her again. I wanted to cry. I was the one who had to tell her. I was dreading the moment. She took one look at me and said "What happened?" and responded that she had to once again be admitted. The look on our faces was of pure dread. But I had to quickly pull myself together and pick up my armor to shield myself of the emotions I was feeling. Fortunately it was only a 3 day stay.
12/21/10
First time since this nightmare has started that my mom has not gone to the doctors office and she hasn't been admitted. Finally we get to go home after a visit. Mom has a been going to physical therapy. But she is slow to recover. This is very nerve wrecking. She is still breaking out in fevers this is totally not something normal but this woman will not listen to me. I swear nurses are the worst patients!!
12/25/10
Not so great Christmas. Although I only received one gift (starbucks gift card), best gift was my mom still alive and attempting to get well. That is definitely a priceless gift.
1/6/11
Ahhhhhhh.....mom has definitely developed another infection! Spent 7hrs in the ER and yep....once again she is admitted. :-/ My armor is rusting and very heavy I'm not sure I can keep it on much longer. I'm starting to have mild anxiety. I feel like someone is sitting on top of my chest sometimes. I can only imagine how my mom is feeling. She is use to being on the go and she has been confined to her house for nearly 2and a half months. ( It was only suppose to be 6 weeks) And we are starting to drown in bills. My mom is the bread winner and I know this is anding more to her worries. But one thing I can say is that my mom is in good spirits only because her faith in God is extremely strong. mine on the other hand is a bit shakey. :-(
